Life as a Mommy & Daddy...

We are starting out the New Year with the excitement of having a baby. What I have learned.....

1. I am a paranoid mommy that needs to learn to not live in fear. It is flu season. We live in Arizona so the days are pretty nice here in January and I would love to go our and get out of the house every day. Since it is flu season all of the news reports and doctors are saying that we should wait till at least March to get out. Of course my baby girls health is more important to me, but the fact that I shouldn't go out is hard for this mom!
2. We are very blessed parents because our baby girl sleeps 3 to 4 hours before waking up and being feed. She is amazing already!
3. We have till May to figure out if we are staying here in Az or going back to Cali and all of this time at home is giving me plenty of time to think about it constantly, or should I say stress about it constantly.
4. I have learned that loving your child is completely different then the love you have for your spouse. There is no way to compare the two. I look into my little girls eyes and instantly cry! I know I am emotional from all of the hormones going through my body, but I seriously could sit there and cry for hours for reasons I am not completely sure. What I do know is she is the best blessing that Derek and I have received thus far in this life.
5. I am not a good stay at home mom. I was raised by a working mom. I have always been a hard worker. I find it very hard to be motivated to be a hard worker in my home. I can go to work and get paid to do the same thing day after day, but doing the dishes day after day is hard for me. Cleaning house day after day is hard. I eventually want to be a stay at home mom, but am going to have to figure it all out.
6. I have realized that no matter how good your medical insurance is...you are still going to pay. I think I have pretty good insurance especially for a part time employee. But we still pay tons of money for co-pays and the treatment so I am just dying to see how much our delivery expenses will be!

The past couple of weeks since being home have been filled with family and this morning my parents and Morgan left to go back home. I have to say that I am extremely sad. I have had to weeks of seeing the people that I love every day and I find it hard to not be able to see them or call them for help. I don't think they all will know how much they have helped out and how much it meant to me that they were here for Summer's birth! I love that we have a family who loves us just as much as we love them all! This is truly a blessed time in our lives that I will cherish forever!